2020 is here! By: Minerva BC Newman

2020 is here! 2019 just breezed through unnoticed...it was such a very colorful, fruitful, meaningful and blessed year for me that i need to pause with outstretched arms to thank the Universe for its abundance it showered to me in 2019— travels, career, happiness, love, money, perfect health!

Let me share with you an affirmation prayer of #GratitudeAttitude from my readings on "Expanded Consciousness:"

I feel thankfulness for what i have in my life.  I acknowledge all the greatest things in my life right now.
I feel grateful for the money I have and the abundance that is coming.
I am grateful for my health and many years of well being. I feel thankful for my family, the ones who are here and the ones who are not.
Gratitude fills my soul with warm feelings of love and light. When I feel grateful, I am connecting to vibrational frequencies of abundance.
Thankfulness of what I have now puts my soul in alignment with the powerful positive energy of the Universe.
I am uniting with the high energy of abundance and attracting miracles into my life.
I feel blessed, gifted and wealthy with what I have right now.
I deeply appreciate all that I have and all I have accomplished.  My life is flourishing.

My love story in a letter

December 8, 2018

Dear John,

Today five years ago you died in my arms despite my whispers of love and begged you to hang on tight as we waited for the ambulance to take you to the hospital.

You refused to breathe more as you gave me that last look of kindness, love, peace, gratitude.

I couldn’t understand then how could you surrender to death so quickly!

We talked about defying death. We agreed to hold hands and face death together.

How come you went ahead?

Then i also recalled one special conversation that continues to tug at my heart even until now:

John: “I pray to God that I go first, because if you go ahead of me, I wouldn’t know what to do with my life. I’d be a wreck, I’d die everyday without you. But you, you are stronger emotionally, I know you’ll be okay without me.”

You also had aversions about hospitals.
Again, I remember our conversation when you were in the hospital for nearly three months because of multiple fracture on your left knee from a fall from our verandah...

John: “Mine, please no more hospitals for me even if i’m near death. I don’t want to die anywhere else, but home. If you insist, I will will myself to die.”

When you had that massive cardiac arrest on December 8, 2013 I whispered to you to hang on because I was gonna take you to the hospital.

You vehemently moved your head to a big “NO” and I cuddled you until your last breath... but I still took you to the hospital!

On the road inside the ambulance amid heavy traffic i felt your cold soul all over me. You hugged me for a good one minute or so... i couldn’t cry! I just closed my eyes and whispered “I know you love me, but please... live!”

I watched the caretakers at the crematorium washed your beautiful body. I covered you with your favourite clothes and swatch shoes and tucked your dentures into your mouth (even if you didn’t like it)... and for the very last time I whispered, “Thank you for a blissful, loving and wonderful life with you. I love you but my heart bleeds right now.”

Viewing your remains for 10 minutes before you were cremated was probably the most loving yet painful experience in my lifetime!

I stood rigid, frigid, cold, lifeless. My gaze fixed on you. It was eternity. Acceptance was hard and difficult.

Holding and bringing home that white square box with your ashes in it made me think about death, about love, about pain, about life some more...up close and personal.

What I felt through all these years was of profound awakening and expanded consciousness;

- You are ENOUGH and perfect. Nothing and no one exist in your life but yourself. The people you love, the family you have, the experiences and milestones in your life are reasons, seasons, lessons and ephemeral tools to guide your journey to self-evolution into the next dimension of your being.

- Life is the grandest meditation with LOVE as the constant, unconditional guide, the highest, most powerful energy frequency to connect us to the highest source of our being.

- We need to evolve every single day because life is not measured in time nor numbers... anything, everything and even nothing are “for our highest good!”

- NOW and HERE is the best time and place to live, to love, to forgive, to be kind, to be happy, to be at peace with yourself, to be grateful...because Eternity is within the blink of an eye, even less than a sec...

So, today I write an seal this letter for you to continue your evolutionary journey in parallel with my own evolution here and now.

I wish though that somewhere along those parallel lines today, you would pause... i need that tight bear hug as we always whisper, “I love you like I love my life!”

Goodbye, John! I know what happiness is now because i knew what pain and sadness were!

With all my love,

Mine

Inhale 2018. Exhale 2017!

Thank you 2017! You were great with me. You took good care of me and provided me with the necessary resources i needed for my travels, my hospital bills and for my overhead expenses and more.
It was indeed a more balanced year. I have a new job that pays well, a lovely house, perfect health, far and wide true friends and a happier "Me"!

#GratitudeAttitude #FoodForThoughts:

1. I'm slowly healing from my grief from my husband's death because i no longer cry when i think of him. Death is a beautiful ending of a life well lived and a new start for your spiritual evolution.
2. Retirement is reinventing yourself. Renew and rediscover your talents, skills and relearn the things you want to do and make time for your life's list, to do's, and always create a room full of kindness.
3. Listening is a wonderful skill. Listen to your body more everyday. Listen to its changes, aches & pains. Listen to your heartbeat...even & uneven. Listen to your thoughts & to your intuition more. These guide you to decide well and to receive truth & guide your directions to where your destiny/destination is prepared for you.
4. Live, love, be kind, be grateful NOW! A day is more than enough for all of these! Living is easy & effortlessly happy when you have love, kindness, peace, gratitude attitude!
5. Where you are now is the best place & time you deserved...to find the reason, to enjoy the season, to learn the lessons only you can unfold!
6. Create, recreate & build relationships with family, siblings, friends, soulmates, plants, animals & everything on Earth & in the Universe. They reflect who you are from the beginning to Now...
7. Contribute positively for the growth & development of people, ideas, change, thinking, language, mores & good values.
8. Realize that you are connected to yourself first, to others outside of yourself & to the stars, lights, sounds & movements of time ad infinitum.

Indeed! You and i are special. We belong to a generation truly our own. How we manage our timeline is dust in the sands of time, of eternity!

Be always happy and joyful. That is the intention of living. To deviate from there, is your choice!

Inhale 2018! Deeply. Exhale 2017 peacefully!